Today brings a whole new definition to the term "Monday Blues". Maybe it's also cause I'm having period today, and maybe it's also cause I've had it enough with the people in my department.
I just cant wait to leave that place..I've been praying really hard to get a new job but until now, nothing is confirmed yet so I guess I am still stuck there.
Just so frustrated with everything...To top it all, one of my ex boss just called me to ask whether I'm interested to join her new department...and when I asked whether it's a promotion or just a lateral, she told me that it's just gonna be a lateral.. According to her, giving me promotion would make me the Team Leader, and for that I will have staff under me and I will also have to approve cases, to which from the way she put it, sounded as if I'm not qualified...
Just so tired of these people undermining me..I know what I'm good at, and I know what I'm capable of..I've proven myself that I can do my work very well, but the most unfortunate part is that I dont play politics really well.. YES I suck big time at kissing asses...so most of the time I go unnoticed, unappreciated and undervalued of my real talent...
There's this one job that I went for the interview recently, and so far this is the job that I really wanted..This one will give me the opportunity to shine...to show my real talents... to prove what I'm really made of...The interview went well, but I'm not putting my hopes high because anything can happen... I'm praying to god that this will be mine... I dont know..I keep getting goosebumps when I think about it.. and I got scared to talk about it - there's this fear that if I talk too much about it, I will offend god..and get punished from it.I know, I know that this is just a misconception, but I guess this is a result of being stressed and depressed for too long..
God please help me
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